Merry Christmas.
Well nothing joyous events happened to me thou. At best was that i played tennis and nothing else. Can feel the alcohol rushing to my head le so shall quickly write what i want and sleep! Tml tennis again.
Shall start about tennis first. Im going serious about it... as for shooting.. shall try and maintain eh? Today mel said smt which i found insulting yet funny at the same time.. he, playing with ham and the gang, told me that andrew and dk who said my strokes are weird and 'wrong'. Loll of all people, them?!! They are so much worse than me, and that Me they are judging is the me from 2mth back. Havnt played with then for a lonnnngggg time and much has changed about my game. Watch out man! Ducky's on the hunt!
went out with pooie ytd to celebrate xmas eve.. CZ 12 ,which is was awesome and hilarious, before walking around and heading back. As usual, skipping details but those details are making me so darn confused and as a result, hurting :(
When we first started talking a few mths back, you asked me this qn which i answered 'no'. Obviously i was lying cause i myself wasnt very sure and i dont wanna ruin the friendship. Months later, and after a series of events and Details, you are making me so damn confused as to what YOU are trying to mean. You seem to be the one who is not clear now... things we do seems so, the-next-stage.. yet we arnt there. All i see around us is a thick fog. Uncertainty, unclear. How do i put it.. you are constantly pushing and pulling me from you. If you were to ask me the same qn, i can give you a firm and honest answer which i will uphold for as long as i live. But can you? I love you. You know? Its so fucking hard trying to hide it and push it down... all bec im afraid you dont share my feelings and it would ruin us.
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