chalet

pat 2 days was tb03 class chalet! awesome much! shall start from monday morning :

went town to meet huixian for lunch at crystal jade! thou somehow her work schedule got screwed up but all went well after all ;) had xiao long bao, spring roll and beijing style dumpling ;) was not really alot lorh but she still eat so little! :/

after eating.. she went work and i went to pasir ris le! met up with ben and otaku and mac first and slowly one by one started arriving. checked in into chalet and settled down first. me xinshun and raf went bowling while anthea xinren rebecca joo hoe and zheng han went pool >< played rather badly for the 1st game but second game alot better ^^ met up again after playing and headed back to chalet to start bbq >

after bbq over went to play bowling AGAIN at like midnight~! HAHAHA damn fun~ clapped and cheered when miss or what, then jeer when spare or strike ;p went back and played 'cheat' until kana complained for laughing too loudly >< watched jef raf xinshun and ben continue playing until like 6am >< went to bed then....

COULDNT FREAKING SLEEP! jef and ben snoring away like some symphony orchestra lidat and that idiot jef kicked me like 3 times despite me pushing away his leg la! finally gave up and went to sleep beside anthea and raf >,< nvr really sleep well but at least caught some rest la~ played 'cheat' for one last time before checking out and headed home! slept on both the mrt and on the bus... bathed and then slept again until like 8pm >< right now : more or less recovered my energy le but still abit tired!

have tml to rest properly and the day after would be flying off lerh~!!!!! hahahahaa *excited* alright back to watching family outing and time for a ice cream too ^^

Night time

Sigh. Its always at night before i sleep when i start thinking about many wild and unnecessary stuff. Stupid brain making things difficult for me :(

Anww~ morning went columnbarium and stuff.. Was kinda critical with my comments on the place.. Shall not disclose >< saw sanna there too:/ went home and had LOR MEE! Its been such a long time since i ate it~ always is go have kkm supper with dustbin at 2am.. But quite a while nvr go liao ah! Hehs

Baked in the afternoon for class chalet tml! I really scared they dont like sia :( made so many somemore!!
Talking about class.. I dont think im that close to them anymore.. in general la~ sometimes i feel..... Leftout? Haix shall not care so much ba ><

Finally its chalet tml! And thur flying off for taiwan! So excited ^^ gonna meet huixian for lunch before i go to pasir ris thou~ hehe:) finally can have a proper meal tgt! At crystal jade too! Awesome place :)

Aishh thought keep flowing and tears on the verge of falling:,( i wanna let it all out but cnt bring myself to. Ive cried too much. Too much for you. Tears gather but dont fall anymore... Its been so long yet a part of me still holds on dearly to you. I really NEED to let go and move on but i dont have the courage to.. I fear that im leaping forward into another pit full of saddness and sufferings.

Photoshoot

For the past 4 days, ive been going to town, the same exact place, every single time! Today and ytd was photoshoot! Like damn cool and fun sia! I hope my photos turn out well :/ and i had to think of a more natural way to smile : think of a funny joke or moment to make me laugh and smile more naturally :p hahahha. Hope they would start calling soon for projects that im selected for :/ need to earn back all that money spent sia! :(

Aish life now is still the same monotonous routine. Wake, eat, ge, fo, other shows, msg and sleep! Arghh boring max! Next mon would be going for class chalet already!^^ excited~ and next thurs flying off for taiwan le! Cnt wait too :) loll i dont have anything else on my mid already ><







Talking to you makes me feel alot more peaceful and happy :) im glad i met you!

Comp

Woke up earl and headed to safra early to grab smt to eat before competition. Had subway at khoo teck phuat hospital(?) then went to range le! Im really surprised at myself on how calm i was able to get!! I really felt my heartbeat slow down tremendously till the point i cnt even feel it. Sadly all this was after my first series ah!! So if i nvr rmb wrong is 88, 95, 94, 91, 91, 96! So total 555! Hey at least i hit my target which i set for myself after the previous comp :/

Hanged out with ex wsss shooting peeps! Zul, siti, cheryl, sean, teena, hwee khim first.. Then when HK house to play mahjong!! Lost like $3 thou but its alright la~ met up with joey later on and went to eat swensen!! Carene came to join us for a while and bumped into jingxuan when leaving and talked alot again!

All i miss the good old days :) shoots of wsss rocks man!!! (the older batch la) the current batch i dont know~ hahahaa alrights la gotta sleep le! Tml going for the interview thingy :/

Poor results

Today's the day.. Results are in and it seriously sucks... Gpa dropped like mad and i dont know what to say..

Went to sleep after checking my result in the morning>< bought some liang cha for huixian cause she still not feeling well/completely recovered i guess? Then went off to meet her after her work! Walked around town to see see. We keep cannot decide where to go next siaa!!

Got scouted(?!) at plaza sing for some modelling company, which coincidentally was where huixian worked before also! She ah! Keep saying she fat and not pretty< come on laa its so not true!! :/ and i found out her english(?) name today after she screenshot her results to me :/ hui hien! Omg so damn hard to pronounce la :( talked quite abit and got to know her better ^^

Accompanied her home as well as went to visit seng kang! Virgin visit siol~ i feel so sua ku>< then got commented on why i keep saying "interesting" hahaha! Machiam frog in the well sia~ nvr see so many things before :/ took bus home (supposingly) but bus got pass by yishun and panda was bear to, going to train!

Alighted and waited for her to come... Walked with her to safra, met joey on the way. Then at safra i saw mr rahim first, then xinmin and joycelyn, then sean, and finally ben and junjie! Hahaha met so many old friends in suc a short period of time! Shooting really brings us back tgt again :)

Aiyoo poor panda :/ argued until so jialat! Secod time i see her angry until lidat but this time worst ;( hope she cheers up soon sia! Grabbing her hand to pull her away from an incoming bicycle and sort of hugging her(?) can hopefully make her happier ba? Let her know she is never alone and i would always be there for her!

The list of ppl i truly care about has just increased by 1 eh?
-mutu
-panda
-ahma
-nemo!
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Im starting to think.. Are you the one for me?:/

Scared for result

Alrights shall keep this short and simple.. Already lying on bed ready to sleep!

Morning was spent rotting watching FO, GE was down because of maintainance :( after that went for tennis in the afternoon~ played for like 4hrs sia tired max! And i get really pissed off when opponent calls my ball, which is clearly 'in, 'out' ! Like wth la dont make bad call leh? Damn no sportsmanship and integrity leh ><

gonna visit huixian tml!!(hopefully) provided she is well and not feeling sick or what :(( hope she recovers completely soon!^^

And and tml is finally the day! Results will be out! Omg im so freaking scared and worried la! I know i did badly but i really tried my best ;( i dont want to fail and retake any module! I want everything to just pass and im happy le :/ sad to say.. I feel as though in struggling through poly, unable to keep up :( oh well better buck up already!^^

Another boring day

Aishh shall be posting from phone today... Hmm where to start? Today is a boring day and was spent rotting it away infront of com! Okay first things first!! My fav game : granado espada!!! I finally got 1 of my character to expert level! Omg its been years sia! Since i always have long periods where i stop playing it :/ was so happy! Dk how hard was it to start from scratch without any help to lvl100, after which was 10 long and torturing levels of veterian to finally be expert ><

Enough for my awesome GE~ family outing! This show really lets me laugh out loud literally! It brings joy and laughter which is a good thing^^ hols is getting boring thou... Eat, sleep, FO, game, occasional tennis, and thats about it? Yea not to forget daily msging with nemo!:)

I would really be damn sian if i hadnt got closer to nemo and didnt have her to talk to everyday :( guess another person can be added to the list of people whom i care about most ^^ and she isnt feeling well again :( poor thing! So worried and concern about her esp with her 6 day work week with siper long hours and minimal break/rests :(
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lost once more

lai laa briefly go though what happened today~

woke up, went school for np shooting club meeting on the FOC. Was selected as a GL?!?! surprised but not bad la! I wanna try leading once cause im always the follower >< never the leader.. hope i would do a good job! settled most of the stuff we GLs were suppose to do, by monday, within a few hours. Accompanied solo and lian kai to the IT Show again~ today is seriously damn crowded sia! so hard to move around and kept squeezing about...

life seems so monotonous nowadays..wake up, eat, play com, watch shows and sleep... occasionally would go out but thats about it ;( unsure if my heart is dead already or what. unsure if love still exists within me. unsure i can BELIEVE in love again... thinking about such things make me just wanna cry it all out! but it seems ive ran out of tears after she making me countless times. cant seem to move on completely no matter how hard i try. part of me just wants to keep on loving you endlessly despite how hurtful it has been or will be. thinking and thinking nonstop~ i really need someone again...its been too long.. think i might just breakdown and implode anytime... sighh!

IT show

Morning when dad's clinic to help out again! today alot of patient sia! but dk why...time forever pass damn slowly over there de ;( what felt like over an hour is only half hour ;( keep scamming my feelings when i check my watch de sia! >< went home and had lunch, idle here and there abit and went of to town to see see the IT show !

super crowded and squeezy sia suntec! so many people! and just last year around this time i was the one working at the IT show! this year im the one shopping around ^^ saw bar jie on the way up, walked around and consulted the prices for what i want.... left empty handed first cause was seriously thinking if i should get the Razer Mamba! What was in my mind was : OMG! the worst hide and seek im about to play--> find huixian in taka food hall there without she giving any directions or stall name! but surprisingly all went rather easy! went down the escalator and not more than 10 steps later, i saw her already :D talked abit then went off first after knowing she having break at 6pm lidat. the time i first went to find her was like 4+? hahaha

okay by the time i got back to suntec, my mind was already set and my thought straighten out! i was going to get the Razer Mamba there and then!

Got it with other crappy freebies : Razer waterbottle and laptop cover! haha shall find some use of it~ anw went back to 313 to get gong cha for huixian first before going taka to meet her! had TAKOYAKI for dinner(?) sad that she only had half hour break :( cnt spend more time tgt~ oh well nvm there is always other times ^^

went home and first thing after bathing was to get up and configure my new awesome mouse! :D prepared 2 general profiles.. one normal use and other for FPS games! seriously idk the mouse's magic or whatt! played BS and i killed ppl so damn easily sia!!! im loving it! :D

and now: my completed(?) gaming rig!

->Alienware m15x 1st gen i7 laptop

->Creative 5.1 Surround sound system

->Creative Sound Blaster X-Fi

->Razer Blackwidow Ultimate BF#

->Razer Mamba 4G

->Razer Orca

Thats all for now but im planning to get a mouse pad soon! :D

town

aishh after so many days of holiday i finally went to town with panda, ahma and tpg! went to pool after they ate first~ damn i seriously suck badly at pool now ;( kept missing many chances and losing >< oh well i dont really enjoy playing pool anw~ just follow what friends wanna do ;/ hahaha

walked around H&M with panda while ahma and tpg went cine~ couldnt find what i want ;( went taka later tgt to see see what to buy for ahma's birthday present!! burdensome sia buying presents esp when you dont know what to get:/

went home and rotted infront of com straight away! sighhh

boring day

aishh what a boring day today is..went out in the morning with parents and their friends to confirm the taiwan trip.. however there was insufficient ppl for now so not really confirm yet ;( ate the famous(?) and truly delicious tian tian hainanese chicken rice! ^^

went home quite early after eating lunch and was doing nothing but slack and play com all the way till night >< msged huixian constantly... and im still very confused about everything... i dont know what is right and what is wrong anymore... i just wanna give everything up but im having so much trouble just to move on!

my Granado Espada is finally up and running once more~ awesome game is awesome ^^ played audi once more with panda and kelly

someone please tell me what to do now.... please lead me out of this mess im in and guide me through my confused and clouded heart.... i wanna feel loved once more but i dont know if your really the right one for me now......