I've tried

Love is a very confusing and complicated thing. It's not as easy as confessing and tadah, you're together. Its a deeper level of understanding, caring, and loving. It's a commitment which you must put in everything you can. No holding back, no regrets, and no turning back.

Sadly, I'm kinda stuck in this shit hole of a situation for 4yrs and counting, I don't blame anyone, I don't hate it exactly too. Its a blessing in disguise I guess? You have all the freedom you want, going out with whom you like without answering to anyone else, and just do whatever you feel like, when you feel like doing it. But with all these freedom, there is that something missing, a tradeoff. You don't have anyone to turn back to after a day of havoc and exhaustion. You lack that emotional support where you can just return to that person as a safe house from everything else. Well that's that right? Freedom, sure, but you're on your own when shit happens. Relationship, sort of restricted but you will always have someone there to survive even the toughest times together.
Wow. That's pretty long for a prologue! HAHAH. On to the main point now : well recently I started talk to someone. Lets use J this time round. I met J long ago at a friends party. We were acquainted somehow. Fast forward to few days back. I met J while going for a run. Didn't had my phone with me at that point so I waited till i got home to FB msg J. Started off pretty well, but everything changed when I tried to take it further. No more replies. Bam, nothing.

The end.

HAHAHAH sorry if I wasted your time reading this. Nah I'm not really sorry at all. Like I give a damn :p

But yea, if things are meant to be, I'm sure it will be right? Even if the timing isn't right, you just have to wait right? Be it days, weeks, months or even years. Obviously you can't wait blindly for everyone whom you fancy. There is that different feel which I can't put into words. The feel varies from person to person. But based on the feel, you know that's the one. Right? I don't know...

Enjoying life the way i know best

My favorite quote of all time : Enjoying life the way i know best. Whenever its used, there is some sort of deep satisfactory linked to it. Impromptu meet up and chill out session with S. (No names shall be mentioned so lets just leave it at that) Well after all these years of going out with ppl, ive learned one thing : when meeting up with a girl, ALWAYS be prepared to wait for her. How long? It depends! HAHAH. Initially agreed to meet at 7, last minute changed to 730 when im already on the bus... Thanks ah. Reached on time(7) which is rare for me since im usually early :P Walked around to kill time, had the Starbucks Lemon Ginger. The fizziness of the drink is really too much. Dont really like it. Anywayyy, wait wait wait, S finally reached at 8.30. One and a half hours of waiting. Still havnt beat the record of 3hrs for a certain someone.

Dinner at Marmalade Pantry. The service crew is AWESOME i swear. Friendly, helpful, and some of them are actually ang mors!! Had the Basque Chicken, Uji Gyokuro tea and Smores cupcake.

The chicken was so-so i guess? Doesnt really justify the price of it. The Smores cupcake on the other hand.. WOW. Would love to have another go at it next time. After having our late dinner, headed off to Equinox, Swissotel. A bar located on the 70th floor with a panoramic view of Singapore. The ambiance was relaxing, there was live music which was awesome. Not the noisy rock band kind of music though! Is those classical/blues/jazz, smoothing to the ears, and easy to hold a conversation without having the need to shout to the other person. Loving this kind of places to chill at. Had 3 drinks, first was anyhow-order-try-luck, City Spice. Should have gotten the hint from the name, "Spice". Bloody hell the drink came in a Martini cup with a whole stick of chilli stuck on the rim of the glass. The initial sip was pretty good but the after taste was : HOT LAAA. MACHIAM EATING CHILLI LIKE THAT OMGG. Note: this is coming from a person who DOESNT eat spice stuff. Had S's recommended drink : Snowball, which was pretty good. Had a hint of lemon ;) Lastly was Long Island Tea, something ive always wanted to try but didnt had the chance. Cant really describe that taste, but there was that "kick" from the alcohol.

Looking forward to my next chill-out, enjoy-life session. All these do come at a price though, but a price im willing to pay. Both dinner's and drink's bill came up to just over $100 each. So in 1 night, 2 people spend $200. Cant have such sessions so often though if not i will seriously go bankrupt! ;(

Untill the next time then!