Well to start off, let me just talk about relationships, more specifically, the relationship of this one friend with made me wanna do this post. Its all in my own opinion :
Im happy for you with your new found love, and i hope you would last for the many years to come. Love her, pamper her and never let her lose hope in you. But as i have said to you, maintain this 60/40 ratio of giving in. You cant always give in to her ways just bec she dont want you to. The previous one you had 90/10.. You might as well just be her maid! You have your life and she has hers. Yes it would affect you and your side of friends in one way or another but we all try to be understanding. Now comes the unreasonable part (to me la) where just because she cant spend that time with you, means you cant be with your friends doing something else as ' it makes her unhappy' and you feel guilty about it. Its kinda selfish right? That because you are grounded and cant enjoy time with him, and in turn he cant enjoy his time with his friends without you. Sigh! Yes it makes you unhappy but that unhappiness doesnt have to be brought upon others. Its too demanding and restrictive of you. You say you understand but your choice of words say otherwise.. I feel like that bad guy now asking him to go out with us instead but whats wrong? Yes i am a mean heartless bastard but i dont see myself being unreasonable. Theres lines i know when and when not to cross. Those lines are drawn with everyone related in consideration, but do you? Okay i feel as though im ranting and blaming everything on you but its how i feel now considering your actions!
Okay enough of that, lets move on to summarizing this year up. Though i cant remember much of the events that occurred throughout the year, i will try my best...
Studies have been the same, just doing what i find necessary or sufficient to score efficiently. The best is not what i aim for, but to at least have a decent grade. Projects are exceptions as its team work : someone else may be doing their very best so i cant be the burden of the group. If the group sucks, yes im in a shitty group with majority or everyone being guys, i have to do a lot more.. Idiots who produce shitty work, idiots who arnt even sure of whats going on and idiots who cant even be bothered at all! Come on la at least produce decent levels can anot?
Friends wise, im glad to meet a few more worthy of knowing. It made my time in class more enjoyable at the expense of me beinf bullied. Yes buddy i referring to you. From you bullying me, then you somehow sync with the other 2 and bully me tgt. Well we do so to another guy but its all with fun and jokes in mind :) Kay la i admit. Thanks buddy for bringing colour to my dull and boring life by bullying/entertaining me.
Some friends will always be regarded as family despite being out of contact for a long time. This is more for the close shooters of secondary school. We stay bonded even as months and years pass by. I will never forget them, i will always love them. Ahma, ash, panda, the seniors and even the MIA sua de.
How can i ever forget the bros i met since year 1 sem 1 who still meet up from time to time even as year 3 comes to an end soon. Raf, XS, Shawn. The bromance spent tgt was..... Unique. Conquering my first run : 2xu 21km with them, and my first full marathon with XS despite me leaving him behind halfway. Oops hahah. The few bromance movie dates with Shawn LOLLOL. And the tennis buddy Raf :) Federer for the win yo!!
Tennis : the core of my life now. Picked up when my uncle introduced it to me, couldnt stop playing it after that. To improve and play better was my goal, laziness stood in my way from time to time. Pol-ite was a great achievement for me despite losing all rounds except against SP with my doubles partner Melvin. Every single sch team guy is corrupted and sick in the mind. Yes everyone. Even the year 1s who were partially innocent at first became corrupted too with our 'teachings'. And then theres Bitch. The occasional nonsense with was hilarious esp the convo where we uses chinese to pronounce english words. Eg bitch (比吃) and asshole(啊思后) [me]. Anw happy birthday to you too bitch ^^
Poly shooting mates, a different family feel. The not-so-close but still family to me. Shooting somehow brings peopls together and causing them to share a unique bond. Times shared together are memorable esp during camps where se stayed tgt in the loft, suffering and enjoying together!
Have i covered most stuff? Idk still got a few more to talk about eh. What a long post this is gonna be.
Hmm shall go with supper buddy first. The countless 2+am supper at the 163 coffeeshop, enjoying the cheap yet delicious kkm. Buy until the uncle see us, i just use my hand and guesture '2' and he nods in acknowledgement, occasionally giving us priority and serving us first. And he even offered to buy us a bottle of beer cause we occasionally do. How many coffeeshop owners would be willing to buy you beer?! HAHAH. The drinks stall aunty also know us to the point where once we didnt buy drinks, she ask why this time nvr buy and if we want or not :) I think its good have a friendly relationship (ene where they would recognize even if we bump into each other on the streets) with those who serve you food on a frequent basis. For me, it includes the 2 noodle store owner, drinks stall aunty at 163, and the drinks stall owners at bukit timah market. Random conversation with them somehow lifts my mood. Really cant wait for our Japan plan to come true : supper buddy and Evan!! Gonna have to save up like bad before that happens.
Who else who else hmmm.... Growing tired and my memory failing me le. Sua la end off soon, but not so soon too HAHA bear with me eh.
Mutu ah mutu. You know i would never forget about you right? :p You are one damn unique girl and one who is exceptionally hard to understand despite knowing you for.. What is it now, 7years? I understand you yet at the same time, i dont. The happiness you have given me cant be put into words, although same goes for sadness. Still id wanna have you in my life although in a different way from what i expected/wanted. I always enjoy the company i had with you whenever we went out. All those good food, eating till we were bloated and little conversations. Being with you, made everything else a blur. I didnt care about the world, any unhappy thoughts simply left my mind when i was with you. You bring about a different kind of joy that others couldnt bring. Im grateful for having met you, for what we been though, for what you made me go through too. It changed me in a way. Good or bad, thats for others whom i interact with to decide. Thank you for everything so far :) Stay happy always.
Annnnnnddddd finally. My personal life. Back to hiding in my own solitude for most of the time though occasional visits are welcomed. Tried to bring more luxury to my little island to help me make living more enjoyable. The Starbucks-Wednesdays and the Enjoy-Life-Fridays made me more broke but the heck. I enjoy some time alone. Eating at nice restaurants alone on Fridays since class ends early. It allows me to think about stuff i usually dont have the time to. It allows me to observe other people since im alone. Its a different experience but one that i enjoy. I behave differently depending on the person and the situation. Oh and my mood too. Been told that if im in a bad mood, i look as though i might really just kill someone. Really meh?? Idk lah my character have been molded and shaped over time as i go though different events of life. Cant help it :/ The other half i seek, but to myself i keep telling, being alone is still better. No restrictions, more money for me to enjoy and live my occasional luxurious life.
Wow. Its already going 4am. Took quite a bit of time to type this but im finally done. To conclude, 2013 has been an eventful one though it may be full of ups and downs, never forget, never regret. Time to move on to welcome a new year. May 2014 be even better. The last few days leading up to 2014, i did my best to enjoy it, make my days as happy as i could. New year resolution : do more good stuff, be more happy, do less bad stuff. Its the same for everyone so yea. A simple one.
Heres a pic of Dumbo. Cute, fat and fluffy. Love him <3.
With that im done. Phew. Love always. And goodnights :)
