I loved and i cared. I did all that i could but to no avail. Maybe thats the reason why i was so sad all these time.. i was hoping to achieve smt that could nvr happen between us. And now, distance between us seems to be growing by the day. Im really tired. I loved you with all my heart and life, cant you see it? Or you choose to ignore it thats all? Plus minus here and there and i loved you for 6yrs le. Thats the amt of time ive known you too.

The more i think about this,  the more i wanna cry :'( what went wrong? Why couldnt our love have another beginning after everything was better? What changed?  Shall not be bothered with you anymore.. do what you want for all i care :/ sucks to have this kind of feeling as the year is about to come to an end. 6Yrs ago, at the start of the year, first day of sch. I saw a pretty girl who seems so gentle and lovable. It was love at first sight. I waited, waited for things to end with KL. My patience succeeded and it was the time of my life. During that period, time passed way too quickly and things came to an end :( i keep trying to get back but you put me down time after time. My heart was completely shattered, i cried so much until i now barely have any tears left. Life was at its lowest when i watched you got tgt and broke up with DC and Stev.... i was there for you, but it seems im just another tissue in your life. If you need me, you will use me. After that im just thrown away and forgotten. I seriously pause to wonder, what am i to you? Like seriously... times passed and with countless ups and downs. Countdown to 2012 and valentines with you was the best i ever got. I will treasure those memories, but memories and nothing more.

Here i am now, countdown 2013 is just tml. A piece of me just died. It died when im finally over with you. As much as i want to cling on to you, loving you even thou its one sided, im done. Thank you for all the memories and love. I doubt i can love another as much as i did to you but thats just life and i have to live on right?

Lam Yiling, you where the best girl i ever met. I pray for your happiness and success in whatever you do in the future. Hope that someone who deserves you and be able to love you better than me appears in your life sometime down the road. Dont always thing that there is no point in having faith in humanity alright? :)

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