tired

Im getting really really tired of this.. COME ON I CAN DO THIS! just 8days more and no more intern~ day after day its the same. Wake up go bugis have breakfast. Go office put down stuff and go toilet >< soooo boringgg. I know ive said this countless times but im still saying it until this is over!
And i just found out, only on Monday the teh at the kopitiam is abit different(in a bad way)... LOLL!

Sighh idk whats wrong btwn us now. You dw reply to EVERYTHING. You know how sad that makes me? Every notification from whatsapp, every msg reply i receive, i kept on wishing it wad from you but only to my disappointment... gahh idk how describe this :/ live on. Move on? :(  ive been doing what i can to make myself better but for what? Who appreciates? No fucking one. Im trying to not be so reliant on r/s with others but thats just how i am :/ if i really managed to, idk what will i become.

Trying to enjoy and be contented with the smallest things, not caring about anything else... why is there only 1 person that can really make me happy without doing anything? Why Why WHY?! just going out and doing nothing special, bam! mood up by 101% Oh well... just looking forward to xiao gui concert with her and her friends, and hopefully japan trip during dec...

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weekend

Yayy its saturday! Weekends are so looked forward to during intern. Its like the only true time to rest relax and enjoy yourself. There just isnt time after work! End 6, home 7, dinner bathe 8, get on bed 10. Lolll its so monotonous too :( well at least i used the whole of today doing what i want!

Slept for 12 hours, replenishing all the lost sleep due to work. Had lunch and headed to htns for some Open Shoot meeting :/ mehh boring~ Ash came to train. Waited for him to train finish before going for a round of bowling.. didnt plan my time properly... had to cab to cck cause meeting mutu and dont want here wait for me. Went to lot one to get the Xiao Gui concert tickets ^^ after that pei her to city hall where she working for the F1.
Lol if you are reading this : you really think i go city hall walk? Of course is just accompany you go there laa!!! Just that when i reach, i thought to myself.. since im already here, might as well just walk awhile~ if not i jiu go home and rot ma :/
Hope you get lots of tips~ ^^

homed, dinner, videos and now bed. Waking at 6 tml to msg~ hope you wont be tooo tired :/ kay sleep time!

Oh oh! Completed inotia 4 le. Now starting on zenonia 4~ All the awesome rpg phone games :)

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class

I should be sleeping now.. but meh. Work is draining every bit of my energy and life. Damn shag. And worse, STRESS. Was thrown a task to do up my company web which was running on wordpress. Best thing is, NONE of my colleague knows how to use it and expect me to do it myself... took an entire day to explore and try everything before i got it done. By then all my brain cell dead le ==

And there was choosing of class too.. didnt aim for any so left it to fill up until left the last 2. Was in 02 first but switched to 05 cause got raf and shun. Slowly i found out that shawn, ramesh, meifie, mal and that grp of ppl also in. Lol good cause many ppl i know. Bad cause all so smart and competitive.. i sure die in that class one lorhh :(

It kinda ironic ah life... shallnt expand on this but yea... will do.

Dad leaving for idk what country 2 weeks later and i have a 30% chance of going jap in dec as of now.

Oh oh! Got me a class 10 micro sd 64gb! Quite ex but who cares??!! 30+ eps of 720p HD running man in my phone leh!:D hopefully going ramen champion tml with ahma and ash. Hopefully having a stsrbucks meet with evan and ba-jie. Its been YEARS since i last met them!! Well maybr except bajie where i passed her bday present :p

My posts are all over the place cause i think what jiu type what. Meh dont care!

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I dont think you get it.. you are worth more than what you think to me. Youre someone i can never live without. Youre part of my life already. You pulled me up when i was at my lowest point. Youre the only one im 100% truthful to and would share anything with you. Sighh... is it that hard to know that i need you? I want you to be mine? And that i love you? :/

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intern half done

Wheee. 3 weeks of intern over! 3 weeks left lets go!! Cnt wait for it man.. its so tiring physically and mentally :( short post today cause falling asleep soon :/ anndddd!! I WANNA PLAY AND ENJOYY! why no one pei me de. /Sadd/ tskk listen too much from mutu le. Can seriously live a loner's life as long as i get used to the part where there is no one else out there left for me. LOL~

Times changed, ppl change. And now im not sure if youre the same person i used to know. Im not even sure if im the same person i used to be what the heck! Back to the past where i just keep everything to myself, hardly saying anything about my true feelings and closing myself up again. Goshh>< idkkkk. Tml is viewing of timetable and the day after, choosing of next sem timetable. Currently, there is no one in mind i wanna be with for the next sem. Darn... choose some random timetable with slots that interest me? Or just let sch decide by not choosing for myself. Sighh idk. Why must my life be like tht? How i wish i have a reset button to just redo everything. Or maybe that reset button is just the flight overseas and staying there. Migrating... thinking about it.... tsk

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fuck

Why is my life like that. Its so fucking annoying. When i come home, what i need is peace and quiet. Not you babbling and nagging on some nonsense shit == i hate it when ppl inturpt my show to ask me do some crap. Asking me do stuff.. THATS ANOTHER THING.

Ya la ya la you very respected and nonsense la hor. You damn big la so what? I hate it when ppl talk down to me. That tone you use.. i just cnt stand it == i will do what is necessary immediately, but i will only do what is requested when i feel like it or when i say so. So dont rush me to do your nonsense things. I already have a fucking intern making me stress enough.

I hate my family. They are suppose to understand me the most? Ha what bullshit. I hate to talk about my stuff except when i feel like it. So you ask me i very tired bec of work or what..? WHAT ELSE ASSHOLE?! THINK! no no i come home sleep after work. So sleeping is the one making me tired == grrrrr...

No wonder both sis fly away far far so they dont have to face your crap. Thanks ahh.... ya and im definately flying away too. Fuck this place. Ya. Detatch myself from ppl. Getting used to it and damn well alright on being alone for quite some time ><

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bday

Yayy 9 sep. Its my birthday~ and i dont really care :/ nvr the type of person that requires too much attention or what >< hahhha nvm let start from morning. Went out with muty for lunch at Nandos! Hahaha not bad la~ ate, laugh and plaay argue throughout the whole time. Left and i went to town nxt to find preseny for hwee khim. Went for her bday party~ sorry to say but the bbq was the worst i ever had. Didnt have the appetite to eat much too…

Seriously, by the i was going back, i was already dead tired. Came home and read the letter mutu gave.

Well~ kinda double meaning i guess? But whar i have to say is : if i find something worth all my time and life, i will stick to it no matter what others say or do. Some things will nvr change no matter what happens and ya.. yes i laughed out at some parts. Damn bhb and cute siaa this mutu ^^

Okay laaa time for me to sleep. Tml 9am monthly shoot and i wanna do well for it! Nights

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intern

Okay to start off, this whole week was insane and tiring. Intern started and everyday was either dying from boredom or dying from huge amt of workload.... gosh! Had meeting with client on like day 3 or smt. Wtffff im not mentally prepared nor experienced in such stuff.. why cnt i get other slack jobs :( currently still working on client's website. Freak man asking a IT dinosaur to manage a web. So much editing and crap....

Weekends was the only thing i look forward to. A proper break from working . Had shooting today morning :) and pizza hut with the seniors after that~ booo no money liao.. poor boy ttm! Needa buy present too>< waaa $$

anw. I dont really know how to describe this anymore. I know ive said this quite a couple of times but i now its really serious. My heart feels dead and i dont get that feeling of love anymore. Its like loved so much until turn into stone. *Medusa* hahaha just random :/ was looking forward to bday at first, but now that it slowly draws nearer... i dont want it to come anymore. Nothing to look forward to. No goals in life, no dreams to chase. I feel so.. dull? Hahs need more colours and activities in my life.. like seriously!!

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