This clique really need maintain sia. Waaay too much nonsense le. What gay-pentagon and forever with the 'cousins'. But the heck, time spent with is always full of laughter and mutual bullying/teasing. Buffet together at Shabusai. So so lah, but the company made the experience better.
But someone told me i said smt damn mean to another. Smt i wouldnt usually say or even if i do, not so obvious until the other person knows. And the thing is, i have no memories of me saying such things at all! It makes me wonder if the split personality is getting worse... It may sound like some fictional story or what but i think theres this good and bad side. And maybe the middle where i become comepletely moodless hahah.
Coming back, i think i have this evil and heartless side which comes out unknowingly and i dont even realize what im doing. Theres a big difference between mean-joke and mean-mean. I dont usually use the latter but sometimes i think it just comes out unconsciously... I will feel guilty for what i say/do sia :( like i didnt mean to be such an asshole.
Sigh what to do but to try and control it and be more conscious of what my actions and words.
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Not everything is as simple as you think.
The quietest people may actually be the scariest.
The happiest people may actually be crying on the inside.
Everyone has their own problems and their ways facing it differs.
We all seek joy and run from pain, but some people fall while running so its important to stop, look back once in a while, backtrack if you have to and help that someone up.
You may suffer a little but at the end of the day, you might end up gaining more :)
