Every night before i sleep, id unknowingly think about you. Every time i feel sad or down, you appear in my head. But the thing is, why are you always here but at the same time, not here :( idk how long more i can take it. My mental and emotional health is terrible. Any moment i may just snap.. i want this to stop but i dont know how :(
The past and coming weeks are seriously going to be hell for me. Assignments, projects, tests, presentations. Every week would at least have 2 things due. Seriously fml man omggg. No motivation, no encouragement. I wonder if i suddenly vanish from existance, what would happen? Well i blame myself too... been closing up recently. No longer that open anymore. Meh what to do ~ sighh !
Staying in loft for a week. Currently having NPSC FOC. This week was physical hell. Tennis for 4 days straight. Was suppose to be 5 days straight but my body just cannot take it and i need some recovery time. Sleeping later and later everyday. My body clock is screweeed!! And the day i end stop staying in loft, id return back to an empty home. Parents overseas for a week. Aish if i could, id follow them to japan too :( ohhwell ~
Gosh i seriously need to sleep soon. Waking up in less than 5hrs :/ goodnights
