Tennis is my life.

About a week of holidays has passed. Seriously not looking forward to the day school reopens nor the day im getting back my results. Fear that i didnt do well cause this sem, is my slackest and most last-min-studying sem. Just pray that i dont fail anything....

For once im damn occupied during the holidays. Dedicating this whole holiday to tennis. Tennis is seriously my blood and soul now. Playing at least 5 times a week on top of working out which revolves around improving my game. From endurance runs to core muscle training and swimming. Tennis is my everything.

Well with my play style and the frequency i play.. Breaking strings like no tml!! Even my newest string (1+ mth) snapped. Outcome? 3strings total. Thank god i had that many rackets as back up to keep playing on. Bought another racket today at dirt cheap price from junior. Secondhand, super old model, poor condition. But i still play well and love the feel of it. So yeaaa ~ Another back up racket for me. Gonna redo the paint job of that racket. Mini project time!! :) Sanding off the current paint, layers over layers of spray paint plus smoothing out followed by clear coating. Gahh cant wait for the finished product ^^

Burning a big whole in my wallet just restringing my 2 main rackets.. At least a $75 damage. Hope it will last at least 2months each...

With only tennis on my mind, it keeps me occupied. It distracts me from all the sad thoughts that come to my mind from time to time. I feel better, i feel happier, i feel more free. Not saying i dont need it anymore but i still miss that feeling of loving and being loved.

How i wish....

How i wish....

Its been a long time

Its been a long time since i wrote smt, been wanting to do it for quite a while so here goes.

Apparantly this blog has been made known to another person... Well since its buddy i guess nvm la hor. As long as its not Her can le :/
Still so many things left unsaid between us. I wanna know how youve been. I wanna know whats going on in your life. I wanna see you again.
At the end of the day, what matters most is still you. Mehh all these are just bits and pieces of things i go through by myself everyday single day.

Projects are going down one by one, the sem is drawing to a close. Whats left is the Integrated Project and 2 exam papers, which is 2weeks away, which i havnt studied for yet. Just wanna get IP done and over with soon! Cant stand certain groupmates. Pissing me off so easily with every action or word said. Gahhhh just want holidays to come sooner! Sep ~ wait for me, im coming :)

Through certain situations, you can tell who are really your friends and who are just someone passing by in your life. Im unhappy but i will just live with it. I feel as thou i dont even belong NP shooting club anymore. The members are just people that are there because they are. Friends that i once saw as family feel like strangers now. I hate being fucking left out for no damn reason. But fuck it eh? Sua lo. Not worth my effort and time.

Friends that i view as family, friends that i care for and friends that are just a title.. Ive tried and im tired. Really tired. If i could, i would just move to some deserted island, live alone with my pet dog or smt. Humans are way too complicated and cannot be trusted easily.

Well that apart, i dont know whats gone wrong with me. Think hanging out with the guys team kinda influenced me uh! But i see this trend.. Every girl i tried to like.. Id always get shot down. So not gonna set my expectations too high up, and prepare for the worst case scenario. Hahhaa time to sleep. Nights :)