Saturday, February 28, 2015

CNY + Fieldcamp

CNY is usually my favourite time of the year, cause of all the ang baos and extra money of course!!! Apart from that, it's also cause I get to meet up with ppl whom I havnt seen in a longgggg time : Cousins and friends. But year after year, the feel dies down and I'm less excited for it this year. Its like another 'meh, whatever' holiday (no puns intended) . One thing I hate is my dad. Just because he is one of the biggest, he doesn't go visit other ppl of his family side when they organize a gathering at some other relatives house. Worse still, he make plans to go other places when they are meeting up. Thanks to his stupid pride ego or whatever fuckshit tradition, I can't meet my dad's side cousins. And they are the ones I prefer hanging out with grrrr... Want go also I visit alone. I wonder if he realizes this only just reflect badly on him... And he is some one who cares a lot about his image... Tsk whatever.

Booked out on mon night thanks to the off-in-lieus. I wonder if it's worth it though, burning a full sat to get a half day off. Shit NS does. Out on tue to do some cny shopping. Burned 200 that day on clothes, food and movie. But it was a amount well spent. Enjoyed myself that day :) All good things has to come to an end and booked in on Sun to go for Fieldcamp on mon. Well done SCS school 1. Cny you make me stay in forest for 5 days. Just well done. Only thing to do is just suck thumb and say "that's just too bad" . Fieldcamp COULD have been an easy and relaxed one if not for some stupid mistakes ppl made like leaving their freaking rifles unattended. Once, kena fucked. Next morning, another one, gave chance. Day after, another. Knnccb that one was the last straw. Kena fucked up down left right center upside down sia. Experienced new type of tekan which is so effective. High kneel on those stupid sharp pebbles, rifle over head, fieldbag overhead, 1 shot drink 1 litre of water, push up, run here and there, drink another 500ml of water, repeated for like an hour. Knee almost broke from all the kneeling and shoulders don't need talk la hor. Of all weapons, I carry that stupid SAW which is so freaking burden and heavy. Oh and there was still that wearing FBO to dig shellscrape a.k.a. my own grave. Literally. Shag until cannot shag.

Ex Wanderer is the best activity ever. Basically it's taking a long stroll with my sectionmates around tekong, talking cock and eating along the way. Night one wasn't that fun though since we wanted to rush finish it. The only 2 guys in the platoon who got gold for ippt (me and another sectionmate) went recce-mode. Took turns carrying the signal set and fast march all the way. Others don't have extra weight still falling some distance behind us.

All in all, this fieldcamp wasn't that bad la. Tekans were expected. Lack of rest: less than 5hours everyday for 5days + physically demanding activities everyday. What kept me going was probably my sectionmates and the plan of going out to eat good food with YL after everything was done Hahah. Give me good food and id get things done, my motivation :P

Sunday, February 8, 2015

SCS

3weeks in to my SCS, on my 4th with only 4 more weeks to the end of foundation term. No idea which unit would I be posted to for my pro term but I'm hoping it would be a relaxed one :p . Comparing SCS to BMT, I honestly don't know what to say. Having mixed feelings cause I like BMT more even though SCS is considered more Lepak. One thing I hate in SCS, they are freaking inefficient. Always have screw ups on all levels. And some people here really no brain one. Like their brain is just to fill that hollow space in their head with no useful function whatsoever. And there's those in Platoon 1 specifically who have no sense of urgency. Everyone waiting for them and they still dare to take their own sweet time. As if the world owns them a living -.- Pisses me off time after time.

Slightly recovered from my fever 2 days back. Oh it was so horrible. Felt so groggy and lifeless. I even slept on when my Sgt Major was talking to me. Can't help it... Speaking of Sgt Major, he is the most anal commander in our coy. He is the one who punishes us most of the time. Next would be our Master Sgt. He ah ... Cool and chill guy as long as you do your work properly. He is in charge of our platoon, nvm. What's bad is my dad knows him omggg :O He frequents my dad's clinic so yea.. Ggwp to me I guess.

Life is kinda messy in a way, pointless and aimless in a way too. Like I don't have the drive to do anything more at this point of time. Just living day by day, looking forward to sleeping at night and dreading to wake at 4+am the next day... What to do, this is NS. Sigh!

Havnt been meeting up with much ppl recently, just the same old bunch over and over again. But those meet ups are definitely worth it. Colours up my life for that short while before heading back to that dull and boring stage.

Honestly, I don't know what to do anymore. I want yet I can't.