Idk what but its always the same story. Forever so easily affected by you... its might be just going out, or as a matter of fact, not going out tgt, but i was really looking forward to it even thou it wasnt planned...
Lets start from the top. Woke at 1230 when i was planning to go for aaa consultation which was from 10-12 >< slept back until 1 where i basically just eat and slack until 4. Studied FIT for like half hour? LOL. Then headed out for tennis with rafa. Tiring siaaa played match. Couldnt win even thou i was leading 5-2. End up losing 6-5.... too tired to win back 1 game... at least i didnt make his win easy~ hoho ^^
Homed, bathed, ate and chiong out to supposingly study.. but was wayyy to exhausted to study :/ so just slack and nua all the way... wasted the whole of today :(
wanted to go out with mutu tml. But she is like coming up with all sorts of excuses to reject me;( i wonder if there is a reason for doing so....... sighh~ i must be thinking too much la hor? :/ but i seriously had no mood for anything after that. Like someone just let go of a balloon filled with all my happiness and joy inside.
I feel bad for djj. Its like im bringing my bad/poor feelings onto her. Likea unfair ah... sorry ;( idk laaaa i just wanna give up on everything :( studies, life, feelings. If all those didnt exist, i wonder how would i be now? Everything is just fucked up. Thats all i gotta say... fml seriously. True love? True happiness? I feel betrayed by the very thing i used to have hope and faith in..
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