Had a long talk with mutu ytd... Spoke of what ive kept/felt deep inside. Recent events(?) aint exactly the most cheerful or enjoyable. Sue i do experince a good laugh once in awhile but it is all short term temporary. The joy doesnt last and i always fall back to that lousy mood.
I must really learn to accept the facts and reality. People change, bunch of them are fakes and most will stab you in the back once they dont need you anymore. Yea... Felt all 3 at the same time == "i dont need self entertainment, what i need is the company of others" but its hard to find good company nowadays~ oh well. Living with it, moving on. Well, at the very least im still trying to...
Nothing much to look forward to for the next week except going Malaysia with extended family! No matter what, family is really the last thing one can fall back on. But my case? Ha! Cousins and stuff different story la, but parents.... Sighh i know they are loving, but they are showing it in a way i dislike == plus they so old anf old fashion that i sometimes dont get their logic/thinking at all == age gap ah! Living in different century one ><
Hmm what else~ lost my flow of thoughts already>< forgot what else i wanna say... Mutu? Next best date would be during june holidays which is like so damn far :( oh had sake ytd night and it was awesommeee!! Dk if i can fall asleep leh. Had an accidental nap earlier >< slept till like 9! Sigghhssss
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