slump

Fml. Past few days were crappy to the core. Just ytd, had a horrible time at tennis. Was playing so badly and frustrated to the point of almost smashing my racket. And today, just a normal shoot and i did so badly. I completely lost my feel and in a fucking bad slump. Nothing i do goes well or ends well. Just hope i pick myself up before sat HTNS invitational shoot... jeez idw go back to that loser state. Whr i just suck at everything! Well at least now is somehow better but not to my expectation. Wheres my motivation? Wheres the feel i used to get just my gripping my racket handle or my rifle grip?! No feel, no game man... thats my problem :/

Ahh fuck my life ~ left 1 report with that group w crap member. Member without the 's' . That one particular person is so fucking useless, giving shit contributions and basically not doing anything helpful == arghhhh wtf man!!!! Just wanna sleep le la. Gonna spam shooting for now just to force the feel back into me. Everything just sucks now.. like seriously :(

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Square one

You! You reading this! If you know me personally... How on earth did you find my blog omgg >< so dangerous laaa ~ oh well what read cnt be unread. Let bygones be bygones!

Apparantly, i made the wrong freaking choice to go cut my hair. Esp to this length :( too short le laaa and weird too!! Headache on how to style it to make it seem better >< geez long hair, ppl complain. Short hair, ppl also complain! Aiya do this for the sake of my angbao money la. Old people prefer shorthair! Hope this CNY isnt too affected by the recession and bad economies.. thou its affecting my exam la! This exam has got to be the worst timing EVER! It starts right after CNY, so i have to study while bai nian-ing. Next it starts on feb 14, valentine day. Wonderfullll ~ no valentines but still?! Pick a better day la omg. Its like a data with my papers. Geez :/

Everything seems to be going back to square one. All efforts wasted and any progress reversed. Shooting : starting from scratch again cause change stance and style. Tennis : lost my serve need to gain back. Feels : guess i was wrong again. Meh. Meant to be foreveralone i guess. Just live in the happiness of people around me :)

Was too bored till the point of taking out my parent's alcohol and cleaning it for them >< so much dust and some even have idk what mould or stuff :/ errrr..... anws. Need save up money to buy my own bottles soon :( finished all the shared bottles of wine and baileys :( damn it laaa why my parents drink so much and fast!!!! Leave me with nothing >:( need save up for a long time siaaa. Got till march before i fly to china ^^ hopefullu got enough by then and spam buy at DFS!! Muhaahaha

Shall sleep liao ba :/ mind is so messed up nowadays. Fake a front. Hide the truth.

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