缺情

Cant rmb the exact words but someone like me who forever 缺情 wont wanna get a gf is hard to believe right? True and not true la. My reply was : 'if i love this person, id have to (most likely would) spend money on her. But if i love myself, id spend money on myself and make me happy. ' Though there are some flaws to this.. how much can i love myself, how much happiness can i buy and how long can i keep buying my own happiness till it no longer has an effect. Just some food for the thought.

A nice day out with yiling! Smoothie king - tried the cocoa x-treme but it wasnt as good as i expected it to be. Tcc - high tea. Nice parfait and cheesecake they had. Vigrin tcc experience, didnt know was so ex. Wild honey - interesting concept they have, got too lazy to look through the menu so anyhow ordered. Food okay lah. The price i stun. 2 person, $70+. Just mains and drinks only.
Eating good food with nice company always brightens up my mood and day. Hope you feel the same eh esp after all your shitty work experiences.
Cant believe total amt we spent today was about 130. And its just on FOOD. Hahaha :D
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Walking this road which ive no idea where it leads to. Just making decisions when required and choosing the options whatever my mood desires. To put it in a word, my life is kinda.... Blank. Like a blank canvas. After i threw out the previous one which was too screwed up to repair. But starting from a blank canvas isnt always the easiest thing to do. Too many options, too hard to choose. Dont know what to draw first. Liabilities are an issue i havnt deal with. Need to start having more cash while having sufficient assets to satisfy my luxury-craving life.

随风飘，随水流，随地站。
No idea what it means but it feels right.

不是你想要的，一定会得到。
有些事，预料不了的。
不要让过去事，影响未来。
好的事情，把它记下来。
不好的，就忘掉把。
不管再难、再痛苦，还是要坚持下去。

Out of this world

Firstly, let me rewind time abit to 1dec. The day which i ran my very first full marathon. Hours before flag off, there was way too much nonsense between me and xs. Slacking at Starbucks, watching a midnight movie : everybodys business, which i got to say is a hilarious movie, and other shit. Flag off at 5am and it was the start of the most painful and longest journey i ever went through. By the 30km mark, my toes, feet, heel, ankle, calf, thigh and hamstring were aching and burning like mad. Muscle rub only eased the pain temporary but there was still such a long distance to go. Want to give up for idk how many times but managed to push on. Met this girl around the last 5km while following an unofficial pacer. Chatted and decided to finish the marathon tgt, motivating each other along the way. Quite cute right? But her age is SURPRISING HAHAHA. After it ended, asked this guy to help me take a photo. In return took a photo of him cause he didnt have his phone with him. Met new ppl through the course of this run. Not bad considering the anti social type of person i am. Official nett time was 5hrs 42min which im very proud of. With enough training, im going to sign up for the next full marathon.

Skip to some nonsense shit test on tue. Didnt study much, cheated, yes cheated. Say times up and ppl started talking, so i just asked for answers and wrote it down. Who cares anyway.. Its a stupid test. 

After that went back to sec sch for shooting camps bbq :) Donkey years since i last went back thr. Meeting the shooting family is always enjoyble. We share an unbreakable bond among one another despite age difference and years apart from one another. Zul was an epic joke as ever, seeing the cute juniors and catching up with the others ^^
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Whatever you feel, it affects me. Youre frustrated and angry, it makes me feel down too. I just cant help it. You just mean a lot to me. Even if the whole world disagrees with me and my actions, id still do it. Watching ppl stay in a rs for so long. Watching ppl get into another rs. Watching ppl being so happy with their partners. I cant help to feel jealous, id want that too but only with the right person. Right now i can only live life as luxuriously as i can to take my mind off those thoughts, and wait for the right one to come (back) [?]