Totm

Its times like this where i feel the weatest. Like this lost of hope and joy within me, this saddness and frustration coming out from no where... Mood swing? Idk. All i know is its strog enough to make me not wanna go tennis tml. If you understand how much tennis means to me, you might get the idea of my mood now. Argh i just feel like screaming it out, letting tears flow and venting it somewhere! Its times like this when i need you the most :( but its also times like this when i feel as thou you just disappeared from my side. Its just my thinking... Ive always been there for you. Even if im feeling down, i would still ignore my own feelings for the sake of yours. But where were you when i needed you? I may mean nothing to you but you are my everything. I cannot live without you. Hehs i think i just felt a tear roll down... And i guess this shouldnt be here but on my notes inside. Who cares. Who even reads this shit. Cause no one cares about the nameless useless ducky. All he has is himself, his ever so limited and little money as well as his fictional lover whom he holds on to so dearly.

I want my life to change. I want my mood to change. I want at least something, anything, to change...

All this makes me not wanna talk more liao. All i shall say is i went town to get panda a charles&keity bag.. Hope she will like it.

Sian

Im bored to the extand of doing this during bcomm class == this bytch needs to learn to talk less and be more direct la wtf!! And it seems its gonna rain soon :< why did i wear birks! Dumb me.

Ytd was labour day. I used to love public holidays for it means no sch etc... USED TO. In poly, hate it ttm! Rather just have normal sch dayd == still need have makeup lesson etc~ arghh! Nothing much to do at home nowadays too >< rewatching eureka 7 and gonna start on another show soon, recommended by mutu cause got her show lo inside :p

Imma so tired that i just wanna lie down and sleep :/ althou i slept quite late and overslept abit... Finally same bus as panda sia! She always the bus before mine de~ and her bday coming soon!!! Havnt get her present yet... Oops~

ahhh im only looking forward to tue nowadays.... Sigh!!