Totm

Its times like this where i feel the weatest. Like this lost of hope and joy within me, this saddness and frustration coming out from no where... Mood swing? Idk. All i know is its strog enough to make me not wanna go tennis tml. If you understand how much tennis means to me, you might get the idea of my mood now. Argh i just feel like screaming it out, letting tears flow and venting it somewhere! Its times like this when i need you the most :( but its also times like this when i feel as thou you just disappeared from my side. Its just my thinking... Ive always been there for you. Even if im feeling down, i would still ignore my own feelings for the sake of yours. But where were you when i needed you? I may mean nothing to you but you are my everything. I cannot live without you. Hehs i think i just felt a tear roll down... And i guess this shouldnt be here but on my notes inside. Who cares. Who even reads this shit. Cause no one cares about the nameless useless ducky. All he has is himself, his ever so limited and little money as well as his fictional lover whom he holds on to so dearly.

I want my life to change. I want my mood to change. I want at least something, anything, to change...

All this makes me not wanna talk more liao. All i shall say is i went town to get panda a charles&keity bag.. Hope she will like it.