Hope

Its been a long time, yes i know. But that doesnt really matter does it? Everyone tells me there is hope, there is still a chance. But ive never agreed with them. I just dont see it the way they do. Some say its a good thing, others say its a bad thing. Good or bad, there is nothing i can do about it can i? Sometimes, you just have to go with the flow. Things may suck now but who knows, the future may turn for the better. Just got to keep living on. Just fate, as some would say. Dont like taking risks which i know i cant take the loss. Even though the gain is unimaginable, the loss would be unbearable too..

How i wish i can just migrate and restart my entire life. Whole new set of friends, different environment, a new life. Forget everything good and bad that has happened in the past and just live for the future. How i wish i could just let everything and everyone, that was part of my life, go. Doing that would just be running away right? Aish...

But still, with recent conversations, i vaguely came up with my life plan! After ns, get a job, earn money. Know what i really like and maybe pursue a degree in that field. And with enough money, set up my own cafe or restaurant. Live that rest of my life as simple as i can. Location, doesnt have to be limited to sg. As a matter of fact i really wish to get out of sg. Meet my other half maybe, settle down and enjoy life the best we can. If not just enjoy life by myself hahs. Cant really be living this singlehood forever too... Its just quite lacking in certain aspects.

Gosh really need to sleep soon. Last min studying before my first paper the day after! *prays hard i dont fail anything* goodnights :)