Insomnia

Cant sleep to fall asleep so just gonna do a small update.

Been finding more time here and there to tennis. Having 2 "jobs" is taking up majority of my time on top of schooling hours. The one w the school cant really count cause by right, i have 8 hours of work. But by left, i only work 1. The other 7 i just go home or slack after i sign in sign out at the same time hahhaha.

Weather damn pms nowadays. One moment sunny, next moment torrential rain. Wth man forced me to buy a new pair of slippers and stop wearing my birks. Been having to cancel some tennis sessions due to the rain too :( I ALREADY HAVE SO LITTLE TIME TO TENNIS AND THE WEATHER STILL AINT COOPERATING! Grrr

Cant wait for new rackets to arrive!! Should be soon? Like in a week or so! Money gonna fly like instantly. Still havnt save up $500 thou.. Like halfway only :p
Match this coming sat! Like a small tournament for our constituency. Just gonna have fun but still try and win it. Playing both doubles and singles! Just hope my body wont give up halfway into the match due to exhaustion... Oh well ~
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Well anyway, emotions more stable nowadays apart from getting pissed off by parent, but thats a norm so yea..
Ive always been curious : going out w a girl, like one on one, is no big deal right? There wont be weird/misleading thoughts right?
I like enjoying life. Be it alone or sharing the moment w someone else. Of course i prefer to be w someone cause can talk and just chill tgt. But i fear misunderstanding of intentions. Society is too screwed up. Acts of courtesy or innocent actions are seen wrongly as flirting or other nonsense. Sigh. Why is being the nice guy so hard and complicated.
"usually the heartless people are the ones who once cared too much"
Trying to stray away from that by still being nice, but its difficult.