Suay ttm

The absolute defination of suay applied to me earlier on :/ just sian max only. Morning went for a swim. At first only got 1 fat, and when i say fat, i mean those seat normally also need 2 seats kind of fat, sharing lane w me. After that 2 more fat youths come. Walao ehhhh so many empty lane pian pian must come my lane make it so darn crowded. Make me change lane after i got in my comfort zone....
Afternoon went NTU to play.. Sun hot like mad, ran like crazy thanks to sadist senior -.- really become chao da liao la. But seriously i LOVE going to NTU. So many pretty ladies ~ hahaha shame most are older :(

After that went to NP play again. This is where the SUAY part come in. Playing match, last point i whack, win the point and match, but broke my string. Nvm break string win match, good sign. Take out spare racket, next match, first point, BAM break another string. Like WTF?! Back to back hits break string?!?! Chor leh 2 strings $70. Somemore i strung both just a month ago only tmd. Usually can like 2mth or even more.. But now 1mth!!??! Piang eh.

Took the school's crappy racket w nonsense string. Just played like some mad man got some crazy points until exhaustion overwhelmed me and i just stop playing that well. Who knew with a crappy racket but the best mood ever, i can hit such pro-like shots ^^ 

But still.. No more tennis for this week. Booooo :'(  gonna work at dads place for a while to fund this expensive hobby. Geez and i still wanna get shirts as well as a new watch. Ahhh trying so hard to sell off some of my unused stuff... Pls buy my Wilson Prostaff 6.1 100 and my Asus Transformer TF101 tablet only no keyboard !! Gahhhhhh money, please start appearing out of no where thanks :/

A little out of the ordinary

Well, to start off, celebrated my birthday differently this year. As a matter of fact, didnt even really celebrate it. Had cake with parents the night before my birthday. On the day itself, i just did whatever i felt like doing. Slept as long as i wanted, went town to walk walk cause the mood was there. Had a plesent dinner cooked by sinyee. Met her to pass me food, she didnt know it was my bday. Didnt had the heart to tell her too. To me, its just like any other day. The people who wished me, thanks :) it means a lot to me. Especially to yiling. For coming down at night after your work and 'celebrating' with me. Couldnt have asked for anything better. Couldnt have found a friend better than her.

Went to denzels house to watch us open after that. The only thing was... The match started at 5am. So before that, den, ham and i were fooling around like nobodys business. Playing dance central on kinect, watching Project X as well as Victoria Secrets fashion show lollolol. Was already dead tired by the time the match started. Kept drifting between awake and knocked out. End up falling asleep by the 3rd set. Glad that i found out Nadal won against Djokovic after i woke :) And and! Dens house was so @+&=#^]¥£ nice la omg! 4 stories with a freaking lift. Damn rich sia that buggers fmaily. I wanna be like that when i grow up. Living in nice house and enjoying myself whenever i get home from work.

Just something random but i just wanna say it. I feel as though i already have everything i Need. Anything else is just a Want. I want a new watch when i already have one. I want to custom my um3 when its already good enough. I want to get more gadgets. I want diamond studs just bec they are shiny(expensive). Me like shiny :) Hahahha! I want this i want that. Its never ending. Its never a 'i need' anymore. This is BAD.. Geez. Really need to stop spending so much on useless stuff that i dont need.

I feel as though my life is a huge mess right now. I dont know my purpose. I dont know how to keep on living like this. Its just so damn tiring you know? Every night before i sleep, i think about whatever happened in the day and anything else that comes to mind. All the time, a pinch of saddness is added into my thoughts and it makes me wanna cry every single time. I run away and hide behind my music. I push those thoughts away by exercising. But saddness always chase up to me. I cant run forever. Even my body breaks down from over exhaustion. I choose to be alone because i dont know who are the people around me that i can trust. I choose to suffer in silence cause i dont wanna burden those around me. Im not sure if i continue putting this fake smile up in front of everyone any longer. Its just killing me inside out.

It just fucking hurts like mad.