Hurt

You make me feel so bad, so hurt... A part of me can never let you go and all i can bring myself to do is just say goodnight to you everyday. For the past 5+ years, im sure ive sad goodnight to you at least 85% of the time. Now youre telling me to stop? I just dont know what to do anymore. You made my tears flow again... My tears flow so easily because of you you know that? Ive sacrificed so much, did whatever you liked and changed whatever you didnt like... But still? For fuck. Day after day we grow further apart. I dont want to see you as a stranger the next time i see you on the streets or what.

Lam yiling, i dont understand you. I thought i knew you very well after being around you for so many years but you changed too much all of a sudden. Right now i cnt even get past that wall you place around yourself. What else can i do?!:( idk how to bring myself to leave you completely at all.... Fml seriously. Why is my love like so fucking shitty :(

Apart from love, the only thing i know is to just shower myself with goods to give me that temporary moment of satisfaction and joy.. Loving my s3 and got me a leather case that costs $59... Leatherre! Best material ever. Luxury and class at its best!

Academic stuff is just a huge burden now. Projects hardly progressed and tutorials untouched collecting dust... How often i just wanna quit sch and work sua. Life is one big lie. People have their own problems, lies and masks. Im no different. What rich cheerful kid that is seems happy all the time? Haha what bullshit.

The happiest kids always have the darkest pas/feelings inside. They just have 2 lives where one is always cheerful, bringing joy to friends and not wanting friends to worry for them. The other side is just everything they nvr showed/released out. Everything is kept inside and away from others. Idk how to live my life properly nor truly happy. Idk how long more i can last like this. Fuck fuck fuxk :(