Whats the point?

Thought of the day : Whats the point of being nice?

Makes you feel good about yourself?
Making other people happier?
Just because you wanna do it?
Habit?

Seriously what does being nice to others bring to yourself. People take niceness for granted nowadays. Its not appreciated, its expected as though you owe it to them. It makes you vulnerable to being taken advantage of, trampled all over and not be given a damn about. Theres a limit to how much giving one can afford before he/she just snaps and not give a damn anymore.

Mine is slowly running out too. Honestly, i find being alone much more enjoyable. I can do whatever i want, not face any bullshit and be restricted in anyway. My long term life plan now would be to be a rich uncle that lives in luxury and dies young and alone. It makes things much more simple. No complications. Being nice to people who treat you like shit just isnt worth it at all. I need my space, i need my solitude. People come and go, its part of life..

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Moving back to reality, i hate my class. I dont like the people, every single module is so dry, boring and memory-based. And worst of all, i cant tennis for AN ENTIRE MONTH. Just fuck my life. Helping out at dads place every mon, tue, thur and fri. He took away so much of my time and he still dares ask me where i went and why was i out till so late. Damn you i need to enjoy my life too -.- Im living in hell right now with the lack of tennis. ARGHHHH HAND DAMN ITCHY TO WHACK SOME BALLS.

Everything seem so boring now. There isnt a thing that i look forward to now. Occasional day outs are the only things that add some difference to the monotone life. Like today, out with ah del for dinner at Sushi Tei. Good food makes me :) But a week in Japan caused my standard required for food to go up a little but it was still satisfactory. Didnt take photo tgt so heres a old one during the holidays.

End of holidays

Well, all things have to come to an end sooner or later, and in this case, the 2mth holiday pass by in an instant. Last week of holiday was spent in Japan visiting my sis. She is recovering surprisingly well and fast since the accident. Hope she would be back to normal soon! :) The idea of having metal stuck into your leg to straighten the bone.. Geez omg. Having a cast was bad enough (personal experience) but to have metal too?!?! I think id just faint and remain unconscious sia.

Wandered around Japan for a few days too!! There was ikebukuro, akihabara, suidobashi, tokyo, ueno, and somemore i cant rmb now. Its quite a fun and interesting experience tourist-ing around in a place youve never been to and having some language difficulties. BUT, I SURVIVED MUHAHHAA :D wanna travel alone again, or at least w friends, NO PARENTS. Just a burden at times only....

Schools starting tml and im not mentally, intellectually prepared for it yet. Idw to go back to the mundane studying and working days... I want tennis. I wanna go out and enjoy myself. I wanna shop!!

Speaking of shop, got me a new watch from japan. ORIENT. Beautiful, automatic semi-skeleton, exhibition back, sapphire glass. Damnn its gorgeous. Now idk what else i want le. Hahahah im always satisfying my own needs and wants asap. To plans for the distant future, only now now now.

Back to school crap.. May only have 4 modules but im pretty sure most of them are killers. For one, i have IEF. A freaking tough and with high failing rate. Then there is CCP which is like CQ all over again. Damnit im starting to hate the module even before i actually sat for the lecture, and just by briefly browsing through the slides.. This sem is gonna SUCK. Have a feeling i wont mix well with classmates. Gonna be some emo alone kid liao lorh :( sighh.

Always look at both sides of a situation. Take monster university for example. Normal : a loser works hard despite hardships and emerges out on top to achieve his dream. The other way : a person faces hardships, slowly gives up and becomes a loser.  Normally people would say to look at both sides, understand and be equal. Screw it. Look at both sides and choose the more favourable one instead!

"I love myself way too much to be loving others" how i wish i can just keep to this and make things simplier, less exhausting and painful. Maybe this is the reason why i keep buying stuff for myself. I just want to satisfy the me now who is constantly troubled. There is no plans for the future, just living the present and regretting the past. This is one messed up life i have to change soon.