holidays

Exam ended like a week ago? So far ive just been playing ny new game FarCry3 whenever im home. Addicted to this game and its pretty awesome! A mix of exploration, missions and fps! Filled with adventure and mouse-gripping moments ~ hahaha :D

Anw as for my papers.. f it ah? Whats done, is done. Nothing i do can change it. Its the first time i left blanks in the exam paper sia!(i think) forgot if sec sch i got leave blanks but doubt it.. all i can do now is pray to bell curve god and hope i get decent results?
Had NUSIS on sunday. Horrible man. Had a bad feeling about the shoot since waking up, turns out it unfortunately came true. Shot a horrible 522. Was fycking pissed, disappointed and sad la. How long has it been since i got such a score? What the eff happened to me and my average sia omgwtf. How to improve and keep this interest up when im not meeting my own expectation?! Arghh gotta solve this problem man. Trying my best to balance tennis and shooting now, bothing aiming to do damn well. But both also not there... What the hell was i thinking when i had thoughts of going pro?! WAKE UP YOUR IDEAS DUCKY! THIS KIND OF SHIT STABDARD HOW GO PRO?! WAIT LONG LONG EVEN IN DREAMS ALSO DONT HAVE UH!

Went out for the past 2 days. Monday was out with kitty, bra and zul to watch One Piece movie Z! Gotta admit, its the BEST anime movie so far! Dont regret watching at all! Even got a One Piece paper envolope! Haha awesome :) met tiger after movie to walk about. Left early for tennis but ended up going home after awhile cause of the stupid rain.
Today, met ash and aden at town, followed ash to cine to get his ear studs thou ended up not buying. Met tiger, kitty and bra coincidentally. At that point of time, a wave of thoughts rushed into my head. Betrayed, disappointed, angry and sad. Keep telling myself now, she was a waste of time and effort, screw it shes such a whore. Honestly, im using such words to describe... arghh making me so pissed and used! Bitch ==
Okay back to main point : went to timah and played pool! Tgt with ahma and panda ;) had fun and kept laughing all the way ~ too much nonsense and jokes already! Should really meet up with them more often siaa . Always will enjoy my time one ^_^ People come and go, but there are some that you must and will never let go. Cause those are the people and will bring you happiness and keep you sane in times of madness or when you are feeling down. Just their presense is enough to cheer you up :p

Gotta snooze liao la ~ 2 rounds of tennis tml! Morning with raf, afternoon with dennis. Seriously spamming tennis now before i fly! Oh yes.. Need. To. Go. Shopping!!!!

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rock bottom

Idk whats wrong with me but it just feels as thou ive hit rock bottom. Slack in the middle of an oblivion. Why am i feeling like this?! Idk mann this sucks :( no feel for everything i do. Didnt study at all, was even playing tennis half-heartedly. Yes, if i cnt even play tennis at my fullest, smt is very wrong. Yet idk the source nor the reason which caused the state i am in.

Another thing. Screw this s3 la. So laggy all of a sudden. Quite a few friends facing different problems with their s3 too.. geez whats going on? S3 rebellion? Hahs. Meh nothing much to post today. Didnt talk much too.. somehow i just love ninjaing my house at night, with not a single light switched on. I feel more comfort when everything arou d me pitch black. Like nothing is there for me to see, just me and my thoughts. Hahs whatever nights

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HTNS IS

HTNS invitational shoot 2013. First external comp of the year, first medal for NP. Thou i cnt say im glad at all. In fact, im damn disappointed in myself with my results. Normally, i would come up with excuses to fool myself and others but not this time. Everything that happened is bec of me, i was the one who pulled the trigger, i shot that shitty score. Only thing to do is learn from mistakes, improve on good points and do better next time ^^

[ Thou the excuse is quite legit, i still blame myself. I changed my entire shooting stance 1mth ago only. Enough said ]

Felt horrible with my results even thou our team won. Ed, 561, Sh, 573, me, freaking 548. First series screwed up the most.. 86, 93, 90, 95, 91, 93. Need up be more consistent next time as well as pull up my avg! No more <90. Min for myself now is 91! I can and i will do this!

Well for the entire day.. hmm lets run through from the top. Woke at 6 freaking 30am to go eat. Dont know why me and SH had the same thinking that the detail starts at 750 when its actually 850.. hmm honest but lucky mistake. More time to prepare. Waiting for second detail to shoot finish before going to west mall! Had pastamania for lunch and swensens double scoop Sticky Chewy and Cookie Cream ! Pok liao siaaa. Poorduck94;( went back, slacked and emo-ed at one corner cause i was seriously just too tired... no energy at all

Homed, took off shirt, lied on bed and immediately KO. Woken by mom cause heading ouy for early family reunion dinner. The food at the restaurant we usually go to like getting worse by the years ah.. need to change restaurant soon :/ homed again and did no shit cause too tired. Gonna sleep now. Quite late already considering the fact i woke so early. Tml going range again to support ahma! Sun bian support SH and ED for their finals. Oh well sad...

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